Last night when I was getting into bed my boyfriend was laying down already and he said, "Come here skinny" My immediate response was, " I'm not skinny" Then he said, " Yes you are. Your legs looked skinny..." then he just kind of trailed off like all of a sudden he realized, " Damn, is she losing weight?" Mini panic inside of my head like, "Oh no! He knows somethings up!" So what did I do? I started kissing him to take his mind off of it. I'm happy to say that he was completely distracted and the subject was not brought up again. Crisis averted :) I'm starting up my new plan today. So far I'm at 130 calories and after lunch I'll be at around 300. I'm so excited. I have to go buy a bunch of supplies for my drawing class and the teacher says it should only cost around $50 (yeah, right) Also, she forgot to mention the $70 text book... Oh well. At least I get 6 hours of studio time each week. I'm super excited for my orientation at Abercrombie today.I really hope this plan works and keeps me motivated.
Good aversion. It is scary when that happens. But, after, I always feel good about it, like a little high. Like, you don't want them to notice enought ot hospitalize you but, you do want them to notice enough to know you are skinny and amazing and beautiful:)
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I know! I got so excited when he said that because it takes him forever to notice anything. I felt so amazing and confident after that :) The good thing about him is he would never suspect I'm not eating because I'm always cooking and making him things and talking about food I just ate. He even commented about how I eat twice as much as him once, so I think my little ruse is working. When I do get super thin, he will probably just think it's from working out and he'll congratulate me on being in shape
ReplyDeletegood distraction i hate it when that happens it makes me extremely nervous
ReplyDeleteThat must have felt so great to hear that from your bf! :)
ReplyDeleteYa, he commented on my skinny legs again last night :/
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