Friday, December 28, 2012

Night Three

We've arrived at straight shots of vodka now. I did 50 crunches, 100 sit-ups, 50 oblique twists, 30 leg lifts, 30 straddle lifts, 30 pike lifts, 50 plies,, 10 L holds, and lot's of stretching. Consumption today includes 1/2 cup 2%milk (60) +mixed berries (90) + black coffee (10) + miso soup (35)   vodka (120) + chocolate (150) = 465 Wow, I even included an extra 60 for vodka I haven't drank yet. Maybe I'll just hold off and stay at  405...

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Once Again

 Tonight it's going to be a mango smoothie with vodka (150) Other than that, I've had miso soup (35) a banana (110) and 1tbs peanut butter 90. That's 385 for the day. Maybe I won't have the smoothie and just take the shots straight. I've never been much of a drinker before ... I'm so ready for a change.

Casino Royale

I'm just sitting at home getting drunk off of martinis trying to forget my problems. I don't know if I really like martinis, but whatever... I'm also soaking some fruit and gummi candy in vodka. Anything to get out of my head for a while. Once the new year, I'm going to just completely give myself over to Ana. I don't care about anything else at the moment.                        ***This is a post I wrote last night that I was too drunk to even press enter, waiting for me when I woke up. I couldn't even remember it***

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Fight the Good Fight

  I'm not feeling so good right now. I'm shaking and sneezing. I definitely feel horribly weak from just juice, so I'm going to add some solid fruits and veg to help out and see what happens. Gotta be thin for Christmas. Question for everybody, what do you want for Christmas?

Friday, December 14, 2012


So today is the official beginning of my juice fast. I have all the supplies and I made a big thing of juice yesterday, so here we go! I don't actually have a juicer, so what I do is blend everything up really well in my Ninja blender, then I pour it through a strainer and press all of the remaining juice out of the pulp with a spatula. It takes a little bit of work, but it will be worth it. I'm starting out at 132 :/ (my BF brought home a chicken sandwich with fries last night, and I couldn't refuse it because he made it himself at work.) The good ting is, I work all weekend, and he does too, so he doesn't really see if I eat or not. So December  14-21 just juice, then 22&23 I'll move onto smoothies. Today's recipe is Mean Green Juice to "reboot you system." Here's the recipe 1 cucumber, 4 celery stalks, 2 apples, 6-8 leaves kale, 1/2 lemon, 1 tbsp ginger. Apparently you can lose 7-10 lbs in a week, and I know it will be a lot of water weight, but it's a start. I would love to be between 122-125. It's hard to know how many calories exactly are in these juices because when you juice, you're taking out all of the solid stuff and fiber from the fruit and vegetables. The website with the recipe for this juice says a whole batch is 373 calories. Let's round up to 400. Only 400 calories a day for a week? That's awesome :) That's 2800 in and if I need 2000 calories per day that's a burn of 14,000 this week. 14,000-2800= 11,200/3500= 3.2 lbs That means that even if a lot of the weight is water weight, at least 3.2 pounds of it will be real weight loss. I hope to use this experience to cleanse my body of toxins, lose weight, and think about spiritual matters in the days before Christmas. I hope I have the will power to make it through. Cheers <3

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Juice Fasting

 One week , pure juices only. My BF is semi joining in with me, and I can't wait! I bought so many fruits and veggies today. Apples (green and red), cucumbers, cabbage, tomatoes, peppers (red, green, and yellow), celery, spinach, bokchoy, Swiss chard, carrots, limes, lemons, oranges, blueberries, strawberries, pineapple, peaches, mango, and bananas. I'm super excited for this. I'll try to go for a week, and expect to be in the mid to low 120s by the end of this. I'll post a before pic tomorrow along with juice recipe of the day if anyone wants to join in. :) Any takers? P.S. Please leave comments with your fasting  tips and experiences. (juice fasting, water, any other type?) Thanks <3 Sunshine

Monday, December 10, 2012


I've been doing a  lot better with restricting. My body is going to be so thin and delicate by Christmas that you won't believe it. I'm so excited to see the changes that are going on. I just want to see those ribs and hip bones. There is nothing more beautiful than that. I want the hip bones that go all the way up and around to the back. Today I've had a fiber one brownie (90) Absolute zero monster (0) a piece of bread with very thin jam and peanut butter (150) and for dinner a spinach and feta salad (100) with an egg (70). I always estimat high so I'm not disappointing  My total is about 410. That's so awesome. I just have to make it through the night, and then tomorrow is another day. If i can do another 400 cal day on Tuesday and Wednesday and then fast Thursday and Friday then 600 in Saturday and Sunday, my week will be at least 12,000 deficit which is like 3.5 pounds down. Oh how I wish. Hopefully, I can keep it under control. 

Thursday, December 6, 2012


 Trying for a three day fast, The longest fast I've ever done on just water in 3 days, so I know I can do this, then I might try to push it a little bit farther Let's see what happens.

Monday, December 3, 2012

I Was Lost

   I though I could do this on my own, but I can't Healthy eating is not the way to go. I want to be so fucking thin that people just stare at me in amazement. Fuck moderation. Fuck gradual weight loss. Please help me. I am weak, I give in too easily  I need the help and support of my readers. Please, send me links to your best thinspo and best weight loss tips and motivation. I need to get back on track and this time, it's all or nothing. Please, help me.