Monday, January 31, 2011


We are going to get so much snow here and everything will be closed and gymnastics is canceled :/ So I'm going to be snowed into my boyfriends house for like 3 days... sounds fun right? Wrong. His annoying cousin is here and I absolutely can not stand her. Seriously, if I had a million dollars, I would give it all to her to make her go away and never come back. She stresses me out so bad. I'm just going to focus on not eating to keep my mind off of it. At least I have Ana to keep me company.


Calling all pro-ana girls out there who want to be pro-ana buddies! I need the motivation, and we all need to lose a little bit of  weight and gain a little bit of perfect :) Comment on this or email me if you are serious about this. Pro-ana is a lifestyle choice not a one time diet or some sort of fad. This is for real. This is a commitment you are making to yourself to be beautiful and amazing, inside and out.  My email or comment on my blog. Together we can do this!!
Much love <3

Changing It Up a Bit

Blah! That's how I feel this year. I was so lazy over winter break, barely working out at all. I need to get going again. I think I'm going to change my blog up a little bit with like the background. I don't know. Maybe this will motivate me to quit being such a fat ass and drop some weight.

And This is How I know You're Amazing

So the other day I'm at my boyfriends house, and we were hanging out before gymnastics. We were laying in his bed and for some reason, I wanted to take a picture of him. Then, he wanted to take a picture of me, so I was laying down on his bed only wearing a smile :) lol sorry about that. Anyways, we looked at the pictures and my ribs and hipbones were sticking out a lot. He was like " Wow! It looks like you have two ribcages!" He was referring to how much my hips were sticking out. I was like " Hey! I like my hip bones!" Then he put his hands on my hips and smiled saying " Me too." I'm pretty sure that no matter how thin I get, he will still love the way I look. He loves that I do gymnastics and want to stay thin and toned. Really, making him happy is my biggest motivation. <3

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Snowed In!

Apparently, we are supposed to get at least 14 inches of snow this week and a lot of freezing rain and ice. That means all the stores will be closed and we will be snowed in. Oh no! We won't be able to get out and get any food! What a shame. I guess we will all just have to starve for the next few days or something.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Super Skinny Me

Ok so I just watched this documentary about 2 women trying to drop from a size 8 to a size 00. It's so funny because the one girl did it without harming her body really and she looked great... yet she says she would hate to be that skinny all the time. What a f'ing liar. She's just not strong enough to keep it up. I think that video was supposed to make all of us not want to diet and restrict, but it was really just inspiration.

Fasting the Day Away

OK so yesterday I went out to lunch with my bf, then we hung out and went to gymnastics. We were going to eat something after, but his friend called us and invited us to come hang out with him at some bar. It was late when we got there, and the kitchen was already closed. Then, we were gonna get food on the way home... but we forgot lol Then I forgot about breakfast, and lunch. It's 4:06 and I just broke my mini fast with some yogurt and water. Maybe I'll forget dinner :)

Tuesday, January 25, 2011


School sucks. Family sucks. This whole world sucks. It seems like the only things that keep me happy are my boyfriend and being miserable. lol I don't want to do anything to cheer myself up. I just feel like things are not going to get better. ugh shoot me

Monday, January 24, 2011

This sucks

Never ever ever ever ever get on the depo shot for birth control! OMG it will just wreck your life. Ever since I got on it a few months ago my head has been killing me and I feel all sad and moody which is totally not like me. I mean, I get upset like everybody else, but these mood swings are ridiculous. The only plus side is that it makes you feel kinda nauseas so you don't even wan to eat lol

It's been too long!

Sorry it's taken me so long to post. I've been kinda distracted with a lot of stuff at home and I'm finally back at school where I have some freedom! It was really challenging to stay on track over winter break bc my parents watch over me like hawks. I stayed at my BF's house a lot of nights though so it was easier when I was there. The day I got back to school, one of my roommates looked at me and said, "You lost weight!" It wasn't a question, but a statement. I laughed it off and said I didn't know what she was talking about, but on the inside I was glowing with pride. Now that I'm back, things are going to be so much easier! Stay strong girls, and feel free to contact me anytime if you need advice or encouragement.