Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I Missed This :)

Yay! People are reading and commenting again :) I was getting lonely out here lol Any ways time to reply and answer. @ Lottie x Thanks for all of the support <3 It Means a lot @cthruthechaos I don't think there is a link for this challenge. I subscribe to SELF magazine, and they sent me a book with the challenge in it. Each day, I will scan the page and post it on blogger. I'm pretty excited to do this with everybody :) Awesome link too.  @ Per Essere Slanciata That definitely counts as working out! You have a tough job it sounds like. Where do you work at? I'm glad you're in on the plan <3 @valeriha92 Glad to have you with us :) Good luck @ Suzie Thomas Thanks for the tip! I'll be sure to hit the sit up machine at the gym tonight. I love that thing. @ednos Linny Great Idea! This is when I am officially starting  and will start posting the challenge, workouts, and meal plans!!! We will be skinny, beautiful, and wonderful just in time for the new year <3   Sooo that's the plan. This challenge starts on 12/1/11 and the challenge will go until 12/30/11. Hmmmm, weight loss competition anybody? Let me know if you're interested <3 Stay strong

Sunday, November 27, 2011

The Rules

                                                      Winter Challenge 2011!                                                 1. An 800 calories per day maximum  2.   For each 500 calorie increment that I exceed my calorie limit by = 24 hours of fasting starting the next day  3. No red meat or Pork  4. No chips, bread, rolls  5. No candy  6. Drink 8 glasses of water per day 7. Follow weekday exercise plan if you want rewards  8. Follow 30 day Self challenge starting tomorrow     9. Post your weight every single morning, post measurements every Monday ( Waist, hips, bust, thighs), post a progress pic every Monday as well :)  10. Fast as much as possible on Sundays  11. Take multivitamin and calcium every day   12. Wear a smile and dress pretty every day 13. Do nails once per week  14. Start a chore chart and keep on top of things around the house           Goals   1. Gain a lot of flexibility  2. Get in better shape  3. Six pack abs  4. Reach goal weight by December 31st   5. Thigh gap  6. Tighten the glutes   7. Be healthier  8. Get my life in order     Cheat Days:  1. Christmas Eve 2. Christmas day  3. New Year's Eve  4. New Year’s day
Do This challenge with me ladies!!! I will post the exercise plan and my meal plans for the week later tonight :) I really hope I can get some people to join me on this. It's going to be awesome <3

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Oh my Goodness!

 Just wanted to say, I am sooo happy right now. I was dancing in the living room, looked in the mirror, and actually smiled. Abs are crazy, hip bones jutting out like nobodies business. I'm feeling great about my progress. Almost there. Just a little further to go until I'm there :) Yeah baby!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011


Day ten: Do you eat breakfast? What do you usually have? 
I try to eat breakfast sometimes, but I feel like that's too early in the day to start having calories. I'll usually have a Monster Absolute Zero energy drink (0) and if I want to eat, I'll have a pineapple greek yogurt (160) That's really about it. I've never been much of a breakfast person though.

I think that when I first started this blog, Anorexia was like a game for me. I think that i thought that this was something that you could just choose to do for a little while to lose some weight, and then you you stop whenever you were done. I would stick to my plans for a long time and then just kind of drift away to normal eating for a while. I would sometime use "anorexia" as a compensation tool if I felt like I ate too much the day before.  I would take it too far sometimes, like this summer, and then I would let people take over and help me "get better"  Now, it seems so different. It's not a choice any more. Every day, every second, it's in the back of my mind calculating planning, scheming.  Sometimes, I have thoughts of getting better, eating normally, and it sounds so nice and wonderful, and I feel so happy at the prospect. Then, that part of my brain just shuts down and ana takes over. All thoughts of normalcy obliterated.  It's crazy how fast it takes over.  And you know what the kicker is? Nobody believes me. I've tried hinting, leaving evidence, outright telling people, and they just blow it off.   Fuck. And you know what? They tell me " Oh, you're so skinny! You don't need to lose weight! How much do you weigh anyways?"  Does it matter!? It's not about the number. It never was about the number. I'm not scared of being fat. I'm not scared of food. I'm not trying to control my life. I just don't want food. I want strength. I hate being so weak. Don't tell me this is just a phase. Don't tell me it's because I want to be skinny. Don't tell me it's because of images in the media. Don't tell me it's because I'm trying to look like a supermodel. Don't tell me it's a coping mechanism, because I'm living on my own for the first time, because my mom abandoned us last year, because my parents never cared, because nobody ever paid attention, because I was born in the wrong place in the wrong time, because I can't deal with the changes...  I AM NOT LIKE ANYBODY ELSE. I AM ME. I AM NOT THESE OTHER PEOPLE. It's not a problem, it's the solution. I don't know how or why Ana chose me, but I'm happier now. How long will this go on? I have no idea. Is this something I can sustain for the rest of my life? I don't know, but I'm going to find out.     
Until the lights fade. Until the flame sputters. Until all strength has failed. Past the point of no return. Hand in hand we walk towards darkness. 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Go Bananas

Week Two!

If you broke your unhealthy habit for one week, congratulations! Why not try two weeks?  
**Oops, I messed up one day, but I'm going to keep trying!
Weekly challenge: Get organised! This week try to plan tomorrow’s meal the night before.
**I always plan my meals. I write out my week in advance, but I'll keep doing it. Maybe I'll post my weekly meal plans on blogger? Good Idea or bad?
Day eight: Name 5 things you like about your body (you can do it) and the one body part you’d like to change the most. 
Hmmm, 5 things I like about my body... I love my long blond hair. It's almost at my hips, and it make me happy, because nobody can just decide over night that they want long hair. It takes a lot of time and patience. I like my skin tone, I'm pretty tan all year. My teeth are straight and white, so that's good. My tummy is pretty flat and I am in love with my hipbones :) My legs are the worst part of my body. Ugh they need work.
Day nine: What is your favourite food, healthy or unhealthy.
Lasagna and pizza!!!! Mmmmmmm I can't live without them :)

Celery= 30 Salsa=10 Dressing= 60 Pineapple= 70 Candy=28 Total=  208. I Really hope that celery really is negative calories. Then, I would only be at 178 for the day. If I am good, and can keep the food out of my mouth until right before gymnastics practice, I can have a banana peanut butter smoothie (165) before practice for energy. They are filling and delicious! Check out Skinny Ninny for the recipe. I'm going to make a double batch and make one for my bf so he see's me eating and doesn't worry.


So, Sunday I had Chips and salsa (400) Soup (400) And chili (300) plus some other randoms. Probably about 1500 calories all together. Not a binge day, but not a good day either. Yesterday I ate 1/2 banana (50) some candy (50) and a red bull (110)= 210 I can't believe I made it through 4 hours of gymnastics with only that. I'm finally under 130 again. 129.4  I need to get down as low as I can before Thanksgiving witch is on Thursday ugh I have 2 dinners to go to, and I don't want to look weird and raise suspicions by not eating, so I need to fast as much as I can before Thursday to counteract the damage I will certainly do. I think I'm going to do a fruit and veggie fast today and tomorrow because I have gymnastics again today and work tomorrow. I'm feeling so strong. It's crazy. I have a big pineapple to cut up and celery and spinach. Mmmmmmm I'm excited. I want to look super skinny and wonderful for thanksgiving because I haven't seen a lot of my family since august, when I was 143 (ugh, never again!) and as of this morning, I'm 14 pounds less than that let's see if we can get to 15 pounds less (127) by Thursday. I'll post a pic of my outfit and everything on Thursday, so you all can see my progress. I hope this works

Monday, November 21, 2011

Keep Screamin Till They Hear You Out

I really want someone to notice. To help me. To listen and really hear what I'm saying. Take action. My God, don't you see what's right in front of your eyes? How can you say I look the same. How can someone drop 18 fucking pounds and you don't notice? How can my bmi go from 21.7 to 19 in less than 3 months and you don't see it?  Fuck you all. Seriously. You have the nerve to tell me I look the same? Open your eyes damn it

Sunday, November 20, 2011

What an Asshole

Day seven: Do your friends and family know you are trying to lose weight? 
No, and if they did they would probably freak out and try to institutionalize me lol      
 So there's this new guy at work that everybody is obsessed with. he is going into the armed forced and I admit he's a handsome guy, but not my type at all. Anyways, we were all talking about what we ate that morning and I had a sandwich made of a beagel (270) amrican cheese (60) and a thin smear of cream cheese (15) = 345 That's all I was planning on having for the day. He was like , "whoa! That's a lot of calories and fat!" What a dick! I wanted to smack him in the face :( What an asshole ugh I felt so terrible for the rest of the night, and when I ate a blackberry (15) He saw and was like " Whoa! They just keep adding up!" Guys are so rude

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Tired Eyes

Day six: Have you ever been overweight or underweight?   
I don't think I've every been overweight, but last summer my weight was "dangerously low" 107 and they put me in the clinic and fattened me up. It didn't teach me anything at all... just made me want to get skinnier as soon as possible.                                                                                                 
 I feel myself getting stronger, gaining more control over myself. I am not going to weigh myself until next weekend and I have a feeling that I am going to be astounded by my progress :) I can do this. Even after slipping up a little bit the past few days, my weight still went down a little. This is fantastic. 

Friday, November 18, 2011

Does This Sound Disordered to You?

Day five: Is there any specific event you want to lose the weight for?
Yes, The rest of my life

6:45 Am Waking up. Stripping down. Getting on the scale. Going to the bathroom. Weighing myself again. Taking a shower. Weighing my self with towel on. Weighing with no towel on. Drying off completely. Weighing myself again. Packing my books and a banana and a water . Going to class. Drinking the water. Writing in my notebook all through class not paying attention: Meal plans, exercise plans, calories deficit calculations. Weight loss calculations. Class dismissed. Driving home. Putting the banana back on the counter. Weighing myself full clothing. Go to the bathroom. Weigh in again.  Dizzy, dizzy, dizzy. Drink more water. Don't eat, don't eat, don't eat. If you eat, take it back out. Leaning over. Hand in throat.  Everything down the drain. Clean yourself up.. Stare into the mirror. Who are you? It doesn't matter now. We'll figure that out later. Big smile now! Head throbbing. Crawl back to the couch. Look at thinspo, blogs, recipies, anorexia movies online until he gets home. Close the computer quickly and put away before he comes inside. Big smile. Warm hugs. Cook chicken (150) and eat only when in front of him. Go to gymnastics 6-10pm. Come home. Go to bathroom. Weigh myself again. Smile at lost water weight. Try try try so hard to avoid food. End up with about 500 more calories. Feel. Like. Shit. Stay up as late as possible. Go to be with him. Snuggle. Wait until he is asleep. Lay awake searching for answers on the dark ceiling. Calculating the calories like always.  Planning the next day. Cursing myself for eating. My stomach screaming at me. Thinking about the food. Calculating. Always calculating. Drifting away in Ana's embrace. 6:45 AM...

Me and My Bones

**I just realized that I never published this post somehow! I apologize a million times for being so absent minded. Please forgive me :)
Time for another blog feature!! Today's is about a lovely blog called Me and My Bones. First off, I would just like to say how proud I am of her. She started off at 145lbs and is down to 115! That is absolutely astounding. She is down 30 pounds and going strong. This is just wonderful :) From what I can tell, she works at a care home for elderly people, and she puts her heart and soul into caring these people. I really love how passionate she is about helping them and making their lives as best she can. Also, if she notices someone on blogger is having a rough time, she writes such kind and uplifting comments for them to help them get back up on their feet. I know they've helped me get through some rough patches. It's so nice to come across such a selfless person in this world we live in today. We all get dragged down by life sometimes, but she fights tooth and nail until she rises to the top and is victorious. Her progress is amazing, and she also has a nice thinspo pics page and a page of tips and tricks. I feel like sometimes, when people say they are listening and trying to help you, they are just going through the motions and trying to satisfy you. This is not the case here! If you were to email Abby with a problem or concern, she would listen with open ears and an open heart. Her advice would be sincere and heartfelt. Abby is  genuine, 100% supportive, and just plain amazing.  Seriously, you need to check out this blog. The posts are fantastic and so inspiring. "Every visible bone is a gift.......I'm unwrapping mine one pound at a time"

Thursday, November 17, 2011


Apparently Ana has a  friend named Bella and we've just met...

Ummm ya?

Day four: Do you work out? How many times a week?
Monday,tuesday, wednesday, thursday, saturday I have gymnastics for four hours. I also waitress 4 nights per week, 5-8 hour shifts. 
Gotta go to work. ttyl

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


Day three: Do you count calories? What is your daily calorie goal/allowance?
I count every single calorie I can. I plan out meals before hand every time. I'm trying to stay at or under 600 per day, and then if I can stay under 600 until after gymnastics (10pm), I can have a 100-200 high protein snack to recharge my muscles.

I just went grocery shopping and bought all sorts of fruit and vegetable goodness. Bananas, blackberries, celery, green apples, spinach, a pineapple. Also, Greek yogurt, skim milk, bubbly waters, ummmmm, I can't remember what else. I'm kinda boring right now soooooo I'll post something else later.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Jumping on the Bandwagon!

Guess what? I'm going to do the 60 day challenge <3 Yay me. It seems like it would be interesting to try, so why not. I am a Monday starting kind of person, so I will post for day 1 & 2 here. The rules are right here if you're interested in doing it also. Ok so here goes:

Week One!
Weekly challenge: Pick one unhealthy food or habit you have (eg. Artificial sweetener, chocolate, eating after 8pm, skipping breakfast) and aim to go 7 days without eating/doing it.
My number one unhealthy habit I think that I have right now, food wise, is eating the bread rolls and pita chips at work when I'm in the kitchen. If I have one I'll have at least 4 more. I'm not joking. I have no control when it comes to those horrible, delicious things, so from here on out, never again!
Day one: How tall are you, what do you currently weigh, and what do you hope to weigh after the 60 days? (Be realistic).
Fisrst of all, any weight loss amount is realistic if you work hard enough, do the math before you set your goal, and stop making excuses. I am currently  5'8'', back up to 130lbs ( yuck!) and feeling disgusting.  60 days from now will be January 14th. By then, I should have no problem losing 19 pounds. That's my final goal weight, but I think I can get there before the end of the year is out. I think that I want to drop to 111 just to touch it, and then form a maintenance plan that I know I can live with and be around 115-117 lbs. I still need to think about this though.
Day two: What is your MAIN reason for wanting to lose weight? (Be honest.)
Honestly, it's because I gross myself out. I need the legs to be tight, the tummy flat, the love handles gone. I believe that when I am thinner, I will feel more confident, and finally stop hating my body all the time.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Ana Playlist

Songs that get me through it all. My playlist called strength. Keeps me in control. Give em a listen and tell me what you think, please.

Love the Way You Lie -Eminem
Bring Me to Life-Evanescence
The Outcast- Dropkick Murphys
As One -Dropkick Murphys
Fighter-Christina Aguilera
Bullet Proof- La Roux
Beautiful-Akon, Colby O'Donis & Kardinal Offishall
Hate That I Love You-Rihanna & Ne-Yo
Airplanes- B.O.B. / Haley Williams
Hold My Hand (Duet with Akon)-Michael Jackson
One Step at a Time-Jordan Sparks 14
Just a Little Bit - Maria Mena
In Too Deep- Sum 41
How to Love- Lil Wayne How to Love
Your Love is my Drug- Ke$ha
Young Forever -Jay Z
What Hurts the Most-Cascada
Walk Away (Remember Me)-Paula DeAnda
What are your favorite motivational songs?

I'm never eating again. That's all

Friday, November 11, 2011

Crack a Bottle

I am postponing my weigh in until next Friday. Reasons: I have been binging for the past week because I was PMSing hard core. I like to make excuses. I started my period today and I'm hugely bloated ugh... I drank a whole bottle of wine Wednesday, half a bottle Thursday, and took 9 shots of Captain Morgan in about an hour last night. I'm such an idiot. Fasting, fasting, fasting the weekend away. The nothing but yogurt and fruit and water and tea for me starting Monday :) I will not weigh in until Friday night. I will fast all day Friday just to make sure I'm empty. I need to just buckle down and stick to it. Wish me luck <3

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Your custom family crest!  
I made a pro-ana crest lol I'm so bored. Red= sacrifice White=peace. The eagle= protection and strength. Kinda cool though, I guess.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Wanna Bet?

My boyfriend was talking last night about how it's weird that we will never see our bones. We will never see our skeletons because of all of the stuff covering it. Wanna bet? Give me about a month, and you'll see mine baby. On the days he saw me weigh in at 125.8 he looked stunned and very proud. Serious motivation to lost more and get stronger and tighter. I love fasting. Started over officially at midnight. Going until atleast Friday, hopefull through Sunday, depending on weight. I'm officially 12 hours in! lol That's pathetic.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Let's Just See What Happens

I am going to start a new challenge at midnight tonight. It's called Fast while you last lol jk but seriously, starting tonight, midnight, I am fasting all out, only water, tea, coffee, etc, until I absolutely can not stand it. During this time, I will turn to prayer to find strength to make it through this. I have done 2 1/2 days the other day, so this time I am going to aim for Sunday. That means fasting Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday... atleast 5 days that's twice my last fast. 120 hours. I can to this. We can do this. Sorry I keep changing my plan, but I feel this is best for me to reach 122 by 11-11-11, Friday. If I don't make it by Friday, I have to fast until I'm there. Here goes nothing!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

It's the Final Coundown!

Oh my goodness here we go. The final days until Friday's weigh in! We can do this ladies. I hope everyone is doing well and I wish everyone the best in all of their skinny endeavors :) If I am not at 122 or lower (**I wish**) by 11-11-11, then I will fast until I am. I will not eat again until I am 122. This is amazing. I love this feeling of success and accomplishment. Solidarity on this girls. Together we are strong and can achieve anything. Let's make those goal weights a reality, not just a dream!

Saturday, November 5, 2011


WOw oh wow oh wow!!!! This is amazing :) I was thinking 127 , maybe, if I was lucky... but I was at 125.8 this morning! I lost 5.2 pounds with 2 1/2 days of fasting. I am just in disbelief right now... Only 3.8lbs to go until 122. Can I do this in 5 days? Yes I can. Omg I am so amped for this.  3.8lbs in 5 days. That's .76lbs per day. Umm... yes! This is going to be amazing. My plan=  Starting at midnight ( in 34 min), fasting again. I'm addicting to fasting now by the way. It feels great. I will fast through Monday until I get off school, and I will break the fast at 4:pm before I go to gymnastics practice. That's a 40 hour fast. All I am allowed is water, tea, coffee, and V8 juice, only if needed. I will have a pineapple Greek yogurt (160) before practice and a Monster absolute zero(0) afterwards to replenish afterwards. I need to stock up on those. Then, fasting again until Tuesday morning, 10:AM,  when I will have an apple (90), then yogurt before practice again( 160). Wednesday, Apple for breakfast(90) Thursday= fasting all day until Friday morning weigh in. If I am not at target weight, I will continue fasting until after work and weigh in at the end of the night. I just have to get to 122 by the end of the night. By midnight. I need strength and inspiration. Does anybody want to do this plan with me?? So for 5 days, I will consume a total of  500 calories. I will burn about 2500 per day (at least) = 12,500 burned. This means -12000 calories. Hmm that's  -3.4lbs, putting me at 122.4lbs! Wow, that almost turned out perfectly. That means I have to burn off .4 extra pounds somehow. 1400 calories to burn over 5 days. Only 280 extra calories to burn per day. We can do this!! Sorry this was so overly planned out, but I need this. Does anybody want to follow this plan out with me! You'll probably lose about 3-5 lbs :) Come on! You know you wanna <3 I need support big time.

Cheating :)

Sooooo I decided to weight in before I break my fast! Only 2 hours left by the way! I started at 131lbs and now I'm at 125.8! This is crazy. My goal by 11-11-11 is to be 122. Sunday I'm supposed to be at my half way point. I had 9 lbs to lose. I've lost 5.2 so far!!!! Yay me. Gotta go to my bfs rugby match. Oh happy day!

Friday, November 4, 2011

Getting Closer!

46 hours!

Tomorrow: So Close Yet So Far...

I'm about to leave for work. Probably going to be there from 4:30-10:30 at least. I'll probably get home around 11:00ish Then it will only be 13 more hours :D I'm so stoked :) I've already made it  39 hours! That's 65% of the way to my goal of 60 hours. I see some major abs popping out right now. It's crazy. Only 21 hours left. Haha! I can do this. I just need to make it through the temptations of work. Be strong, be strong!
P.S. I swear I keep smelling pizza... there's no pizza here at my house. Am I crazy? ;)

Inspire Me

Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.
Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.

“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”


It is better to risk starving to death then surrender. If you give up on your dreams, what's left? 
If your determination is fixed, I do not counsel you to despair. Few things are impossible to diligence and skill. Great works are performed not by strength, but perseverance. -Samuel Johnson 
A dream doesn't become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work. 
America was not built on fear. America was built on courage, on imagination and an unbeatable determination to do the job at hand. 
Gold medals aren't really made of gold. They're made of sweat, determination, and a hard-to-find alloy called guts. 
One way to begin to see how vastly indulgent we usually are is to fast. It is a long day that is not broken by the usual three meals. One finds out what an astonishing amount of time is spent in the planning, purchasing, preparing, eating, and cleaning up of meals.

Whoo Hoo!

31 Hours so far! I'm feeling fantastic. I'm about to leave for drawing class, and then I am going to come home and relax, drink lots of water, and maybe (definitely :D lol) going to nap. I get home from school at 10:30 and then leave for work at 4:00. That's 5 1/2 hours to just chill and recharge. I hope there are people out there fasting with me! Join in for the rest if you want. Only 29 hours left :) I'm more than 1/2 way there. I can do this.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

60 Hours+

It started officially at midnight. FASTING FOR 60+ HOURS. Woo Hoo! Fasting started at midnight, will try to go until 12pm Saturday, have about 300 calories before gymnastics practice, and then continue my fast through Sunday morning when I have my halfway to 122 by 11-11-11 weigh in. I should be at 125 by then. That's the dream :) Anybody want to fast with me? I work all weekend so yesterday, today, tomorrow, and saturaday I should burn about(Bmr 4x 1500= 6000) + Work or gymnastics(1000x4= 4000) + random daily calories (500x4= 2000) so atleast 12,000 calories burned! Almost 4 lbs, but I bet I'll burn more. I'm determined to be at 125 on sunday morning, or atleast at the end of Sunday. I can't weigh in until then. I'm so excited! Who wants to join me. 13 hours down only 47 left to go! I'm  almost 22% of the way there! This is crazy :) I only have to make it through work, which will be my biggest test, because I waitress at a country club, and there's always food available. The bright side is, when I make it through work, I will be at about 22 hours (36%) in, and then when I wake up in the morning, it will be about 31 hours ( more than half way there!) :) Go to my drawing class, and then I will nap until work at 4:30 and that will be more than 40 hours! (2/3 of the way there! Oh boy!) When I get out of work, I will be at 48 hours, go to sleep, and then wait until 12pm to eat before practice so I have energy! 60 hours here I come baby!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Pumpkin seeds= 200
Imitation crab meat= 150
Croutons= 75
No more today
Fasting tomorrow


Gaily bedight,
A gallant night
In sunshine and in shadow,
Had journeyed long,
Singing a song,
In search of El Dorado.

But he grew old --
This knight so bold --
And -- o'er his heart a shadow
Fell as he found
No spot of ground
That looked like El Dorado.

And, as his strength
Failed him at length,
He met a pilgrim shadow --
"Shadow," said he,
"Where can it be --
This land of El Dorado?"

"Over the Mountains
Of the Moon,
Down the Valley of the Shadow,
Ride, boldly ride,"
The shade replied --
"If you seek for El Dorado."

And Then...

Fasting starts up again in 32 min at 1AM I will go as long as possible. The exception being I can have a yogurt before practice tomorrow then fasting Thursday and Friday until before practice on saturday then fasting sunday if possible. I can't weight myself until monday morning. Somebody needs to start a weight loss competition to get us all motivated!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011


Yay, my favorite day of the year is here! Fast-a-thon! Get Hungry For Change. No food, water, gum, or anything passes these lips until the sun goes down. All of the money raised goes to help starving children. I get an awesome t-shirt. I get to hang out with all of my awesome middle eastern friends. There's a huge banquet tonight at like 6 or 7 I don't know, but I get out of class at 4 so I get to hang out with my girls before. I'm so excited. I have a question. Some of you girls said you were going to make a picture out of my post. What does that mean, and can you post your picture on your blog when it's done? I'd like to see it. Today is going to be wonderful. I just miss drinking water a little bit. Lets see Midnight-6pm= 18 hours no food or water. I've already made it 13 hours. Only 5 left! This is going to be easy. How can I avoid eating at the banquet though? It's supposed to be breaking the fast, so it would be weird if I was't eating.  I'm trying to go vegetarian. (which is true) I'm not very hungry (even though I'm empty) Talk a lot and eat little ( this I can totally do) Drink like there's no tomorrow ( activity with the hands at the table gives the illusion of eating) It's going to be ok. Middle eastern food can be a bit heavy, so I need to just be smart and choose healthy options. Maintain control. Then tomorrow morning, Cereal(100) water water water water at 4:30 before gymnastics = yogurt(160) and cereal (100) calories for the day (360) If I have to eat between workouts then it will be an apple (90) making my total 450. Not to bad. My maximum 800. My preferred is 600. I haven't seen these girls since before I lost the 13lbs. I want to wear something that will show off the skinniness :) I want to hear comments about my weight. I haven't seen these girls in almost 3 months. I hope they notice.