I'm back at 135 where I fucking started because of all this binging bullshit. I'm so pissed off you wouldn't believe. I wish my boyfriend didn't enjoy bringing me pizza and pasta and all sorts of fat and sugar loaded calories. I know he means well, but enough is enough. I'm taking my life back. Seriously, Mardi Gras will mark one year since I've been caught in this staying up late smoking weed and binging every night and starving all day cycle. I've lost a year of my life to this shit, and I'm done with it. I'm fasting since 1 AM this morning and I'm going to fast until Sunday morning whenever I get up, probably around 9 AM that will be 4 days and 8 hours. I want every little bit of junk out of me, and then I'm going to start up with a very restrictive fruit and veg only diet. Lent starts on Wednesday, so I'll fast that day as well, then I have a cheat day on Valentines day, because I'm sure the BF is taking me out somewhere nice. I feel like I need to go this alone, so I will post again on Sunday morning. I might still update on the other blog about the more normal aspects of my life, but I will not be around here until Sunday. I need all the support I can get to put my life back on track, so send some love my way <3 I can get through this, I know it <3
Damn sweetie, I'm sorry. That really blows. I know that feeling of wasting a year of your life. I'm sending you lots of love. Good luck on your fast.
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dude we're like the same! (except you're a lot skinnier than me...haha) but seriously: i feel exactly the same. that's why i fasted monday+tuesday and now i'm doing fruit and veg only for 2 months! we can totally do this. i believe in you!
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