Good Lord

I woke up in the middle of the night with the most horrible stomach cramps. I couldn't even stand up straight. It was so damn painful. Then I started puking and it was just so horrible. The good thing is, I can't even think about eating. When I weighed in on Monday, I was stuck at 131. Somehow my weight went up, but I am about to start my period, so I could be retaining water. School is going well so far, so that's good. How is everyone doing with the weight loss? I'm going to go lay down and try to sleep this off.

What a Day!

Today was so busy! Please update with weigh in today. I promise a proper post tomorrow <3

This is so Annoying

Purging so much lately. I can't stand it. I hate this so damn much. Weigh in tomorrow morning and first day of classes.

My Apoligies

  First of all, let me say I'm so so so sorry. My internet has been on the fritz and I haven't been able to post anything at all :( Comment on this post with your weigh in please! :) I really need to update the contest page. I promise to post every day. Classes start Monday, and I have a pretty big space between two of them, so I'll have lots of free time to post. So, I worked really hard last week, and got down to 130.8! Soooo close to my first goal weight. Then I lost it and totally binged ( and purged :/ ) like crazy for 2 days. My weight shot up to 137.8.  I was absolutely disgusted with myself, so I fasted all yesterday and worked my ass off. I weighed in this morning at 132. I guess I was retaining a lot of water. I think I might keep fasting today as well then eat very very light ( under 700) Saturday and Sunday. Hopefully I can get under 130 by the Monday weigh in. Please update and let me know how things are going.

I've Made up my Mind

First of all, it's still not to late to join in on the weight loss challenge hosted by Fat Piggy @ (Size) Zero Intentions. Secondly, I know what I will be offering up as a prize :) I am going to make a wonderful redbracelet for the winner that looks like this picture but with red beads :) Also, I am going to use a synthetic leather cording because I know we have a lot of animal lovers out there and I want to be sensitive to that <3 What do you think?

" And the Day Came When the Risk it Took to Remain Tight Inside a Bud was More Painful Than the Risk it Took to Blossom"

This time is for real. I can feel it happening.  The magic of being empty is really taking over again. I don't know why, but the end of summer always seems to spell out new beginnings for me. I cheated this morning and weighed myself :) I really couldn't help it. I was so hungry when I woke up this morning that I couldn't resist the temptation because I knew I would be down, and I was. ( But I won't reveal the number just yet) All I had yesterday, even though I cheated on my diet, was 1/4 of a roast beef sandwich (200), some fries (300), and 1Tbs.peanut butter (95). I feel like I estimated a bit high on the fries and sandwich, but it's better to be safe than sorry. So I came out under 600 and that's just fine by me. I need to keep it up <3 How's everyone else doing?

Let's Start it up Everybody!!!

So here we go! :) Who's up for the weight loss challenge? I'm going to make a page for the challenge and post up all the stats so we can all stay motivated and accountable. Check out (Size) Zero Intentions to see who else is in, and see who you're competing with. So here are my starting stats 5'8''  133lbs BMI= 20.2 Wow I feel so damn fat posting up that number. I hate being above 19. I hope to be at 129 by monday. I think it's totally possible, because that my weight after majorly binging last night on candy and chips.  Than my BMI will be at 19.6 and I can feel light again. I think for this first week of the weight loss challenge my strategy will be to only eat fruit, veggies, and a tiny bit of lean dairy. Absolutely no meat, bread, candy, pasta, cake, cookies, or anything of the sort. Hopefully I can make it through. I'm tempted to do my apple and coffee/ zero cal energy drink fast. I lost 11lbs in 10 days on that, and I really really want to do it again. thats a 1.1 lb per day loss, so I could lose 7.7 lbs in a week and be at 125.3 ... If only , if only. Any way, fill me in on your stats and let's get this competition started!!! Oh by the way, what should I offer up as a prize?

Co-Hosting Weight Loss Challenge

Well , this is it. As sad as it is to say, we are just about in the last month of summer. In a way, I'm kind of sad. On the other hand, I'm excited for fall weather, back to school, sweaters, leggings and boots. I am determined by this time to have thigh gap! I really want to be able to rock the look from the picture above. Soooo, I was reading some blog posts last night, and on a lovely little blog that I read , (Size) Zero Intentions,  (Go check it out now! ), I saw that she is hosting a weight loss competition and offering up a prize to the first place. I am totally in for a weight loss competition, and I wanted to offer a prize to the first place as well :) So here goes. The competition will last for a month and you have to weigh in every Monday and post it up on Blogger. We will calculate percentage lost each week , and whoever has the highest percentage lost wins! I haven't yet decided what I'll offer as a prize, but I'll post a pic of it tomorrow. It will be something very nice, I promise. Who's up for the challenge?

Kind of in a Hurry

Sorry I don't have time to take pics and everything right now, I'll have to do it tomorrow morning. Here's a quick update on my stats. Bust = 34in Under Bust = 28 Waist = 25 Hip Bones = 33in Around biggest part of my butt = 37in Right arm = 10.75 in Left arm = 11 in Right leg = 22 Left leg = 21.5 Height = 5'8'' Weight 132.8.  There's 7 weeks left on this program, so theoretically, if I was losing 2lbs per week, I could lose 14 lbs and I would weigh 118.8 Wow ! That's scary exciting, but I would settle for 122 for now. I really need to redo my goal weights and rewards for this time around. I hope I can lose an inch off my waist, hips, butt, and each leg. I want that damn thigh gap!

It Makes Sense

 Wow, I'm so inconsistent with blogging lately. I'm just trying to stay off of the computer and enjoy my last days of summer before the classes start back up.  I will definitely be more consistent once the school year starts back up full swing. I feel like an idiot. I forgot to take some before pictures, measurements,and weight  when I started Insanity! I'm so dumb. I will take all of those things down tomorrow morning once I wake up. I am going to work my ass off so hard tonight, because tomorrow is the rest day of this program and I need to burn up as many calories as possible before then. Since I'm not working out tomorrow , I think I'm going to fast all day. I don't need the calories since I'm not working out. I'm also doing a laxative cleanse, and trust me, it's working. I have to take the pills with food, so I'll just have coffee and something healthy under 200 calories in the morning, then go empty all day. Also, I need some new pants for the school year, so I guess it's clothes shopping time :) I'm excited but nervous at the same time. My current jeans are loose in the waist and between the legs so hopefully I've moved down a size or two since I last bought pants. I'm hoping that I weigh in low tomorrow. I saw my weight shoot up to 135 last week from all the binging, and I hate myself for it. On the 19th, I'm seeing an old friend that I haven't seen since May. I have to lose as much weight as possible by then. I have to be    I will be under 130 by then. Without a doubt I will be there. I really need to get off my ass and do my workout. Until tomorrow morning!                        <3 Sunshine