Disbelief

       I've never really been able to maintain my weight loss like this before. Usually I'll drop 5, put on 2, drop 3, put on 4, drop 2... Get the picture? It's maddening really. I suffer and push myself for days to get results, only to give in, have a massive junk binge, and be left frustrated and disappointed in myself. I've been restricting like crazy, but still enjoying treats. I'm letting myself each pretty much anything besides a lot of refined sugar, but in tiny portions. 

Here's what I ate yesterday:

Breakfast~ a handful of raspberries, a small handful of Kashi shredded wheat cereal dry, and peppermint tea

Lunch~ a few salad croutons, a Quaker granola bar

Snack~ 7 circus peanut candies, 4 salt water taffies

Dinner~ Cauliflower, a pork steak, two rib tips

Dessert~ 40 cal fudge pop, a handful of unsalted peanuts

I know that all sounds horrible, but Sunday I let up a little because I have to visit my family, and have family dinner. I told my dad yesterday that I needed to buy new work pants, because I've been using the same ones for quite a while, and they are falling off of me ( US size 7) I can pull the waist on these babies like 4 inches. I work at a restaurant, and we have to wear black pant, black pants, black shoes, black everything. I told him I thought that the pants were probably super worn and stretched out from being worn 4 days a week for the past few years. He then responded with, " I think it's because you've dropped a ton of weight."

Of course I responded with this gem, " No I haven't! I've just tightened up a lot from working out." Crisis averted lol  I need to start being careful about what I talk about. No more drawing attention to my weight loss. I always want to point it out to people to see if they notice. The good thing is, I always tell people I weigh 127 since I started high school. Little do they know, I was actually up at 143 at one point...

Even after all that crap yesterday, I still weighed in 126.6 :D BMI 19.2!

I can't wait until my bmi is in the 18 range, but I have to be under 125 for that to happen

Once I get there I'll post more pics

<3 Sunshine

New Body, Almost Finished

Here I am at 127 the other day. I'll post more pics once I get under 125 :) What do you think?

Svelte

Yo-da-lo-dah-lay-hee-whoooooooooooooooo! Sorry for that outburst, but I'm so excited today that I just had to yodel. Weird how that happens -_- I am so strange...  

Anyways! The reason I'm so excited is the freaking scale read 126.6 this morning. I'm just in shock. This time last week I was 4.4 lbs heavier :p Not a bad loss for one week, right? I've found that just straight restriction works much better for me. I'll post pics tonight after gymnastics so you can see how far I've come.

Here's to another -4.4 lbs this week

XoXo Sunshine

Summer Sweetness

Hello :) I'm back

It's finally summer, so I have time to post again. Everything is so crazy lately, but I've found peace within myself. I get so excited now whenever I feel the hunger pains set it. 

My little diet plan didn't work so well, but that's ok. I'm still losing, slowly but surely. I'm under 128 currently, simply from restricting. 

I can not wait to see 125 flat. Everything in my being is pushing for that right now.

Only almonds, and salad, and grilled chicken today. All teeny tiny portions.

I miss you posts and comments, but I will be catching up and commenting tonight. Expect a full proper post with picture updates and measurements tomorrow :)

XoXo Sunshine

Girl Crush

Sooo there are two super skinny girls at my work that are best friends. One girl, lets call her T, is about 5'7'', and her friend says she's " about 98lbs and waaaaaay to skinny." T insists she eats " like all the time" Ya, ok... The other girl, S, meanwhile, is like 5'6'' and says she is 106. She pretty much brags openly about her eating issues and wears it like a badge of honor. Kinda frustrating and annoying to work with all weekend lol

ANY WAYS, she told me yesterday," You have like, the best body. I think i have a girl crush on you." Haha it was so tempting to be like, wana trade bodies? I'd have to be around 112 to have the same BMI  as her.

I'm starting an amazing new 10 day jump start plan today, that I made up. It's less than 800 each day, and there are little exercises you have to do to earn each meal. If I don't do the work first, then I can't eat. It's as simple as that :D The plan is to drop 5 lbs in 10 days, but I won't know how much I'm losing until the very end. Let's go weigh in really quick so I have a starting weight... runs to scale, strips down to nothing, calibrates scale, weighs self holding a heavy weight first, just to make sure, weighs self for real, aaaaaaand the scale flashes 129.6 then decides 130.0 is a better reading :/ stupid scale , giving me false hope. So the goal is to get to 125. The lowest weight I saw in the past two years was 125.8, and I remember how amazing that felt and looked. Time to step it up!

This 10 day plan actually works out perfect, because it will run today through the 14th. I'll weigh in the 15th, and probably fast that day, because the 16th is my BFF's graduation party. It is going to be at  a restaurant called Houlihans, and there is free food, buffet style. Sounds like a nightmare haha Anyways, I haven't seen her much in the past year because she's been busy and 3 hours away at school. I was probably about 133 last time she saw me, and a lot less toned. At 125, I'll be down 8 lbs, about 6% body weight loss. I'm sure she'll see the difference and say something :) and of course I'll deny the change in weigh lol

If this plan yields good results, I'll post it here.

Question: What is your favorite low cal dinner, 400 calories or less? I'd love to hear your ideas :)

<3 Sunshine

I Don't Know About You...

Happy birthday to me! 

Happy birthday to me! 

Happy birthday, Happy birthday! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

 Is that pathetic or what? lol  I'll be posting updates and filling you all in on what I've been doing during this long absence tomorrow. It's always tomorrow, right? That thigh gap is still with me, and I couldn't be happier :)

Until tomorrow

XO 

Attention Ladies! (and gentlemen?)

First off, are there any guys out there reading?  If so, hey there :D If not, boo you guys suck! Just kidding
Sorry about this, I'm just in such a good mood today because I woke up at 127 lbs  and saw this... 

Click on the pic to enlarge if it's not clear to you. That's a teeny tiny thigh gap!!! I can honestly never remember having a thigh gap before, because by the time I was aware of its existence, I was already too fat to have one :p 

Do you see it, do you see it? That's without pulling my heels apart, pushing my hips back, or any of the normal tricks. That's 100% genuine space there and I'm so unbelievably happy! 

The other day, my boyfriend said I look like a person that was shipwrecked on an island and all they did all day is workout and eat tropical fruit lol He keeps commenting on how skinny I look, and how my legs look tiny. I tell him I don't know what he's talking about, but thank you :D 

I hope I stay strong this weekend, and it's still there on Monday

Thigh gaps & ribs <3

Sunshine