Vicious Cycle

"I eat because I'm unhappy, and I'm unhappy because I eat."

I'm starting to get that dark eyes, exhausted, starving artist look. I only weigh in once a week now, but the numbers hold steady. Hovering just a hair above "underweight." I've never been so small for so long. Idk when I last weighed in above 125. It's scary how easy this is all becoming.

Sitting Pretty

Have you all noticed a shift in your set weight since all the Ana madness ensued?

Back before all of this, in my Senior year of high school, my weigh would sit between 135-140 

if I wasn't consciously trying to manage it.

Once college happened, and I became obsessed with the numbers 

133 was an amazing number, and anything above 137 was absolutely disgusting

The I dropped into the 130-135 range

and down 

and down

 and down

Now my weight naturally sits between 123 and 127 without me even trying to maintain

I guess my habits have changed and i just didn't notice

If I start to approach anything resembling 130, I panic and starve

last time I weighed, I was 123.6

I don't look any different, but i always feel like I can feel the bones in my face protruding

You can't possibly lose 14% of your body weight and not notice

idk, though...

I feel like I look the exact same, 

but with a high weigh of 143, those 20 lbs obviously went somewhere...