New Beginning

Tomorrow it all starts over. I'm serious about losing weight this time. I want to drop 20 lbs by August 25. I have 60 days to accomplish this goal I don't think this will be too hard to accomplish. That's one pound every three days. I'm so excited!!!! Tomorrow is day one of my weight loss journey. I can't wait.

What Is This Feeling?

I'm staring to feel really bummed out. I'm not afraid to say that I am totally obsessed with Harry Potter. I've read all of the books cover to cover dozens of times, I went to bookstores at midnight to get the new books as soon as they were released, I've seen all of the movies, I could probably beat anybody in a round of Harry Potter trivia. The new movie is coming out very soon and it makes me so sad. I have nothing else Harry Potter related to look forward to after that. :( I've decided to compensate by buying myself a little gift that I've been obsessing about for ages. A satchel bag like the students at Hogwarts use to carry around their books. Here's a picture of the one that I wanted originally 

Unfortunately, they no longer sell this one, but I found a really cool alternative.

I absolutley love this bag and it comes with a free vintage coin purse. I am obsessed! I know this sounds very nerdy, but I really want the Hogwarts seal on the bag like the original one, so I might get a pin, like this:

and put it on the front so it looks similar to the bad I wanted. The plus side of getting this other bag is that it doesn't have Harry Potter splashed in huge letters across the top, and if I ever stop obsessing over Harry Potter, I can just remove the pin and still use it :) Also, this bag is lined with a really pretty blue material and it's big enough to put my lap top in. The Harry Potter Bag was a bit small. Also, this bag is about $70 cheaper so that's a big plus. I can't wait until my next paycheck so I can buy my bag!!! Only 5 days left :)

Attention!

Ok so it's time to finally get these results out. Please, everyone who wants to be considered for a prize send me your final competition weight by Tuesday June 28. Email me with your name, final weight and starting weight. Good job on all of your hard work and thank you all for participating! Email me sunshinechild69@aol.com

Rehab Is For Quitters

So I have a confession to make. When I listed my weight for the competition, I said it was 135 at the beginning and really it was more like 125. I lied about my weight because what I saw in the mirror was sooooooo much bigger than that. My beginning BMI was actually 19.0 not 20.5. I kept losing weight pretty quickly and by week 4, I was down 6 pounds. This wasn't good enough for me, so I stopped eating anything but ice cubes and grapes, taking in about 150 cal each day and still going to 3 hours of gymnastics 5 days each week and working out like crazy any time I wasn't at the gym. I dropped another 5 pounds. I came home from school and my parents freaked out big time. I weighed 114lbs with a BMI of 17.3 They took away my laptop and I was basically under house arrest until I put on 10lbs. I promised to put weight on and not workout so much. I told my parents I lost all of the weight because of stress at school. They believed me. I kept lying. I started purging after meals, worked out at night when they all thought I was sleeping, I would say I was walking the dog while really I would pick her up and run while I carried her in my arms lol. She's a tiny dog. I would go out in our pool and swim as many laps as I could until I thought I was going to die. I lost another 7 pounds in 8 days. I was down to 107 with a BMI of  116.3 My parents had enough. They told me I needed help. I needed to go to an eating disorder clinic. My mom is a doctor so she went all medical analysis on me. They guilted me so bad that I sad yes. I was sent away for 30 days to Castlewood Eating Disorder Clinic and we talked about my problems, stopped working out, and fattened me up. Once I put on 16 pounds and kept it there, they told me I could go home, and they gave me a bunch of papers and books and doctors numbers and every piece of advice they could cram down my throat. ugh As soon as I got home I started packing up my things and I moved out the next day. I am currently living with my wonderful boyfriend who wants nothing more than for me to be happy. Honestly, being so thin made me feel good, and I really don't care what other people think about my weight. I'm back and more determined than ever to lose the weight. Today marks the first day of my successful comeback. I will be beautiful!

I've been gone so long...

So much has happened this past month. I have so much to tell you all, but not a lot of time now. I'm so sorry that I disappeared but I'm back now. I'm trying to get all of the contest results together now. Please send me any updates you haven't yet. All I really need is your final weight and BMI please. Email me sunshinechild69@aol.com Thank you all for being so patient and I'll post more details about my experience later today or tomorrow.

Stay strong,

Sunshinechild69

Things That Make Me Happy

Finally!!

Ok so I think I finally have everything updated. I notice that each week, less people seem to be sending in their stats. I'm not mad, I just need to get this all updated so send them into me if you haven't already! If I messed up on your stats or forgot to put them in let me know but commenting on this with your competition name and what I need to fix. Thank you!